Today has been a day of headache and general blahs. Needing a kick-start, I'm seriously doing my best not to depend on a movie, TV or food to snap me out of it. I've fallen into marathon reading once again, but even that I'm holding at bay. You see I need to disappear for a while. Oh, I don't mean leave town, just be completely invisible. There are things in my future that are suspended in time and there is a real desire on my part to reach up and take control of them. That is exactly what I am not supposed to do.
"having done everything to stand, STAND therefore..." that has been the command to my heart in many areas before and it seems to be here once again. There is no danger, no illness to fear, no demand too heavy, no sorrow or concern upon my person. It's dreams and a knowing that there is an opportunity to see those dreams come to be. So close...so close.
A wise young friend voiced her need to trust the Marvelous Creator of our being. I, likewise,
am needing to trust..."He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it." I am awaiting His completion. His move. His showing me that things that seem as if they are not working..are indeed working. Last night there was a glimmer of progress and a call to my heart to hold steady and STAND.
I'm happy. I'm "stupified". I'm calm. I'm sure. I'm growing....and that's the hardest part. If I was "a big girl" I'd be beyond all wondering but I guess I'm not. So I'm still wishing I could go invisible and walk through a few situations and hear the voice of people involved...to know what they are really thinking. Wish Frodo would lend me his cloak.
Once again I hear "Trust in the Lord with all thy heart and lean not on thy own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge HIM and He will direct thy path." So since there are no obvious sign posts I'm going ahead, straight ahead, and believe that He's already made a way before me. Actually there is no safer place to STAND.
Eph. 6:10-18 (13b & 14a) ; Phil. 1:6 ;Prov. 3:5&6
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